Michael Jackson, King of Pop

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LONG LIVE THE KING OF POP
Michael Jackson
1958-2009

*You're such an inspiration in many ways. It's just sad that you had to go through those things & you never had a chance to break free. But your good traits will be treasured. Your music lives on. I miss your laugh!

Heart of Worship (My Version)

21 years...

This "ovarian cyst" is now 21 years old.



To think that I wouldn't have made it alive had the doctors decided to take me out of my mother's womb. I am a gift from God. My roots are from my parents' faith, my mom's faith that had changed this "cyst" to a "growing embryo.. a fetus". If my name had not been derived from BLESS or BLESSING, it could've been FAITH.



God has a special calling. He did not draw me from the unborn, after long years of waiting, to a life full of mediocrity. There's more to this life -- a life that should be lived by faith.



I am not an ordinary child. In the Old Testament, names have meanings. God values names. I was not named Blessy Jahne just for the fun of it; I have been called to be a blessing & to be like John - John the Baptist? the Beloved? I was born for a great reason, just like John the Baptist. I was born to have a special connection with God just like John the Beloved.



He wants me to live to my full potential, according to the very purpose He has designed me to fulfill. He wants to show me more & tell me more things.



"Lord You know my heart, and all my desires, and the secret things I never tell, Lord you know them well." Lord, here I am, 21 years after Your great miracle. I am Your living testimony, a living proof of Your faithfulness. Help me to live the life You have called me into & to fulfill the very plan that You have for me. May Your Spirit not depart from me as I battle on to reach that goal. If You are for me, who is against me? Let me live the love song that will make You smile and say "well done my good & faithful servant".





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I just want to thank everyone who has been part of my 21 years of living. One thing I know, it was never a coincidence; there's no such thing as coincidence for God, there is only reason. It wasn't a coincidence that I was born a Liquido, that I grew up in the Philippines & lived here in Canada after a while. It was not a coincidence that I met all of you. Through the good & the bad, it's always for the best. "All things work together for good for those who love the Lord."



I want to thank God the FATHER, the alpha & omega, my beginning & my end, my ABBA; my Lord & my saviour, the author & finisher, the one who had started a good work in me & faithful to finish it, the reason for my living - JESUS CHRIST; & my counselor, my guide, my teacher, my anointer & anointing -- HOLY SPIRIT, for their unconditional love, indescribable gift of peace that surpasses understanding, mercy & faith that know no bounds, & trust. YOU are why I live. YOU are why I sing. YOU are why I pressed on towards the goal. No words can express my gratitude.



Special thanks to my family - my mom, dad, Pauline, Hannah. You are my source of joy & strength because God works His ways through you. Thank you for the comfort when I am down & troubled, for sharing my joy, for the HUGE SUPPORT. Where else in the world will I find that? God blessed you with such & I can never be thankful enough to be part of this family. I am proud to be an Enriquez-Liquido. There's nothing in the world that would replace that. I love you all.



To my relatives, thank you all so much. To my cousins -- Buena, Jayjay, Ivan, Ate Johre, Ate Leah, Genrev, Nicolette, Ate Sheng, Ericson, Regine, Concon, TJ, Vanessa, BJ, Robin, Lester, Lyca, Lawrence, Fiola, Kuya Lester, Kuya Leo, Kuya Regie, & the rest whom I am missing so much & loving so dearly, you are all always remembered. Have faith in the Lord always. To Tita Tess, Ninong Tony (Happy Birthday too!), Ninang Nora, Tita Marissa, Inang Pineng, Inay Maria, Tatay Saro & the rest of my uncles & aunts, godmothers & godfathers.. thank you! To my Tata Godeng, I miss you so much. :( You are always remembered.



Thank you Kuya Mon, you're such a blessing. If God had not spoken through you, I might've caused a huge delay in His great plan. You are always there when I needed someone to talk to or hangout with. Thanks for taking the time to do that. Rocky is the path but blessed are those who have godly friends who will catch them when they fall OR TRY to fall. Keep on serving Him.



Thank you Kuya Jay, you've always been one of my motivators. 2 years had passed but your words are still stuck in my head & my heart. That if ever I felt like not going to church or to youth, that's the time that I should really push myself to go. You are one of God's instruments in my life & I thank Him for that.



Thank you Ate Marj, Ate Imelda, Kuya Lucky... thanks for the long talks! It's always fun to bond & share thoughts & experiences with you all in one way or another. Most of all, I thank God that those talks are always filled with encouragement. Thanks Ate Jobee for being my open cell leader & my friend, I have learned from you a lot. You have invested so much into the Kingdom & your works are never in vain. I thank God for speaking through you.



Thank you Chona, Cates, Charisse, Karyll, Mary... my mares & amigas! Malayo man, malapit din Right Cho? Thanks for the talks, for having my back, for the hangouts & chillaxing sessions. Thanks for the support & for not forgetting me. Thanks for being my buddies, you guys are awesome! Keep on trusting God.



Thank you CYN & JIL Surrey-Newton family... this is where I've grown spiritually & I'm being trained for greater things. Wherever God will take me, I will always look back & thank Him for giving you & making me a part of you. Thank you Pastor Gody & Tita Joy for being great & mighty church leaders. God has blessed & will continue to bless you tremendously for continuing on despite trials. Keep on serving Him. Thanks Ate Cris, Ate Magie, Ate Meriam, Kuya Allan, Ate Jaenz, the CMT, LGN, CAM & the rest of Newton family.



To my CYN family, through ups & downs we'll be united. I want to see more of this, for us to function as one - one family with one love, one hope, one dream. Thank you Kuya Barry for the hangouts, long talks, rides (haha) & for being a great friend - for being "Kuya" & "Barry". Thanks Patrick for that lovely birthday message & for greeting me at 12am-ish. You've always been a great friend & will always be. Keep on serving God with your talents. Thank you Ate Jovi for the encouragement & for being a great leader & a great friend. I wish you know you better & I'm looking forward to that! :) So come back na, now na. Lolz. Thank you to the other CYN BC core leaders I haven't mentioned yet - Ate Totie, Ate Gi, Jaisa, Ate Chich, Jez, Kuya Karlo, Kuya Marco, David, Kuya Gerry (Did I miss out anyone?)... & to Josh P. & Joel, I'm looking forward to building more awesome memories with you guys as we strive to fulfill God's mandate. Never stop trusting in the Lord. Thanks to my open cell members.. Patrick, Pam, Aprielle, Mark F., & Tracy, I'm looking forward to sharing more things with you & to knowing you all better. Thank you for the greets. Btw, we have open cell on Saturday, hope to see you all there :D. Thanks Genis for the greet, may God bless you more with the wisdom that He has given Solomon, & courage & strength that He has given Joshua & David. Thank you Josh B., Ate MJ, AJ, Leigh, Sarah, Jilannie, Marielle, Denelle, Kelvin, Angelica, Froilan, Michael R., & Lyza for the birthday greetings. Love you all. To others that I forgot to mention & to my entire CYN BC/Canada family, thank you very much.



Thank you JIL BC & Canada & JIL Worldwide... to Pastor Aldrin & Pastor Monette, Ate Karen & Karmi Santiago, Tito John & Tita Marivic Pucci, Pastor Myra, Kuya Mark Larisma, Kuya Robert, Sarah Urlanda, Ate Sahlee, Ate Chicky, Pastor Raymund & the rest of my JIL family. I also want to thank God for the livea of Bro. Eddie & Pastor Aldrin, I thank God for speaking through them & I will continue to hold on to those words, for truly "it is done".



Thank you SCLUB Kada -- Joane, Lisa, Melai, Andrea, Mia, Anne, Cecille.. I miss you all! Congrats to Lisa & Luther. Thank you SMPCS Batch '04, miss you all. And also to Fab5, FEU friends, miss you & love you all!



Thanks to my AFJ family headed by Pastor Cal, keep on serving God! Continue to declare that UBC is for Jesus Christ.



Thanks to the Pangan Family for that very lovely birthday message! Haha, thank you Danica, Alyssa, Lucas, Tito Fred, & Tita Rebecca.



Thanks Tita Shirley, Daniel, & the rest of Costa family... thanks for never forgetting. ;)



Thanks KC, Michael Perez, Amerie, Kuya Gene, Leyla, James, Jezahree, Lucille (miss you too!).. Thanks for the birthday greeting. May God continually bless you abundantly.



To Pipay, Erica, Rianne, Julia, Michael, Ralph, Jocelle, Jaspal, Eunice, Genie, Katherine L., Min, Samantha, Bita, ShaSha, Ate RG, Cath, thanks guys for the friendster & facebook birthday greets!



Thanks to my sponsors... Dra. Belo for my skin, Fanny Serrano for my hair & makeup, Inno Sotto for my gown.. LOLS, just kidding. XD



To those whom I forgot to mention, forgive me! BUT Thanks for being a part of my life. More memories to come! Another year has passed, but the journey continues...



LOVE YOU ALL. GOD BLESS YOU.





-= Blessy =-
21 years and counting..

Lots to Learn.

I've realized that I still have lots to learn. I still have things that I don't have a concrete answer to. But that's the beauty of it all, I get to learn more, know more, and share my experiences while learning. I know He'll never fail to answer my questions in one way or another. That's how relationships are built. In knowing, there is trusting. I just have to be still... and exercise wisdom.

Never Alone

Never Alone


I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?

Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You've placed in my life.
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me.
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.

-- Barlow Girl



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"This song is so close to our hearts because it truly came out of a time when so many things we felt God had promised and were coming to pass suddenly just fell apart. It felt like God had just abandoned us. In the midst of that time we had a choice, do we go by our feelings or hold on to God's word when He said I will never leave you or forsake you. We found He can be trusted and His word is true." - Alyssa Barlow (BarlowGirl)

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I may not understand what's happening, but Lord You made a promise. You said You will never violate Your covenant or alter what Your lips have uttered (Ps. 89:34). I may have cried a million times and you might not have answered a million times but a million times is far from the infinity of Your promise and love. When You said the desires of my heart will be granted, You are not joking. You never lied, never. If this is what brings You glory, be glorified through me & in me. -- Bless

"Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? 'Father, save me from this hour'? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!" (John 12:27-28)

Perfect Peace

Perfect Peace - Laura Story

Stay close by my side
Keep your eyes on me
Though this life is hard
I will give you perfect peace

In this time of trial
Pain that no one sees
Trust me when I say
I will give you perfect peace

And you'll never walk alone
And you'll never be in need
Though I may not calm the storms around you
You can hide in me

Burdens that you bear
Offer no relief
Let me bear your load
'Cause I will give you perfect peace

Stay close by my side
And you'll never walk alone
Keep your eyes on me
And you'll never be in need
Though this life is hard
Know that I will always give you perfect peace
I will give you perfect peace

:) The Sweetest Thing Ever

Falling in love...

When I fall in love --- I'll fall in the arms of Him who loves me unconditionally, then He will safely land me in the arms of him whom He has set apart for me. 

FIREPROOF, best romantic movie I've ever seen. 

...I love You.

:)

The Silence of God and when God says “No”

The Silence of God and when God says “No”

by Blessy Liquido

 

Key Verse:

Matthew 27:46 (NIV) – About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani? – which means, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

 

The hardest part in praying is when God doesn’t answer or God says “no”. There’s nothing more heart-piercing than having your prayers unanswered or when the answer is not what you have eagerly expected.

 

It could be that God didn’t grant you the job you wanted, didn’t give you the house you dreamt of, hadn’t given you that perfect guy or perfect girl that you’ve been expecting all your life (“Mr. Perfect may not always be Mr. Right” – Got 2 Believe), or maybe God didn’t heal you from your sickness.

 

Whatever plea it is that we have, when it goes unanswered, it crushes our hearts – may it be for a short time, or a long time, it doesn’t matter, we still feel disappointed in one way or another. It makes us wonder “where is God? Why is He not doing something? Why is He not saying something?” or sometimes, we even wonder if He is really real.

 

Sometimes, even if we had experienced God’s power before, just a simple unanswered prayer could make us forget about what He did before because we are so overwhelmed with what is happening now. It might not make us wonder if he is real, but it could make us wonder if he really is a loving Father.

 

Two examples:

 

1. Paul – God said “no” to his pleas for healing.

 

2 Corinthians 12:7 - "To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.'"

 

We don’t exactly know what that torn in the flesh was, but whatever the case, it was a chronic and debilitating problem, which at times kept him from working. This thorn was a hindrance to his ministry, and he prayed for its removal; but God refused. It must have been difficult for him but it kept him humble, reminded him of his need for constant contact with God, and benefited those around him as they saw God at work in his life. 

 

2. Jesus – His Father said a silent “no” when he prayed, and He experienced His Father’s silence even more when He was suffering and dying on the cross.

 

Mark 14:36 – “Abba, Father,” he said, “everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.”

 

Jesus faced darkness too. He was betrayed by a close friend, all of His students ran away, and then He was unfairly treated, unjustly tried, and executed by the government. Even more so, Jesus was deeply frightened by something else. He knew he was about to shoulder all the evils of humanity. And in this moment, his Father would turn his back on him. For the first and only time in existence, the love of the Trinity had something come between them. He cried “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Jesus knew his Father’s silence too.

 

 

 

 

a) Sometimes God allows certain things to happen in our lives, no matter how bad they are or how bad we think they are, because these ultimately lead to a greater good – for us and for others as well.

 

Both Paul’s and Jesus’ sufferings led to something really great. Paul’s weakness had glorified the Father even more as people saw how God worked in his life through his sufferings. This led to radical conversions and commitment of people to Jesus.

 

Jesus’ suffering on the other hand, led to the salvation of mankind. He endured that temporary silence of the Father so that we will never have to experience God’s silence permanently. He could’ve just “no” to him as well because his task is not easy.

 

Romans 8: 28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

 

 

b) God’s silence teaches us valuable lessons about our faith.

 

i)                    Patience

 

Habbakuk 2:2-3 (NLT)

2 Then the Lord said to me,

   “Write my answer plainly on tablets,
      so that a runner can carry the correct message to others.
3 This vision is for a future time.
      It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled.
   If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently,
      for it will surely take place.
      It will not be delayed.

There is always something greater when we wait patiently upon the Lord. As he is patient, we must also be patient. God’s perfect time is never too late, no matter how delayed we think it is. If he were to answer in his silence, he would say “Be patient! I will work out my plans in my perfect timing.” To trust God fully means to trust him even when we don’t understand why events occur as they do.

 

ii)                  Endurance

 

Romans 5:3, "We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us - they help us learn to endure" (NLT).

 

Life’s difficulties will help us learn to endure and grow. We rejoice in suffering not because we like or deny its tragedy, but because we know God is using life’s difficulties and Satan’s attacks to build our character. It builds up your spiritual stamina. These problems deepen our trust in the Lord and give us greater confidence about the future.

 

James 1:2-3 - 2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

 

iii)                Determination

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (Three Young Men) [Daniel 3]

 

Daniel 3:16-18: 16 Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. 17 If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. 18 But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up."

 

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were pressured to deny God, but they chose to be faithful to him no matter what happened! They trusted God to deliver them, but they were determined to be faithful regardless of the consequences. If God always rescued those who were true to him, Christians would not need faith. Their religion would be a great insurance policy, and there would be lines of selfish people ready to sign up. We should be faithful to serve God whether he intervenes on our behalf or not.

 

 

c) God doesn’t want us to focus on the blessings alone, but He wants us to focus ourselves on the Saviour who blesses, saves, and heals.

 

When Jesus healed people in the gospels, He often told them not to tell anyone about being healed. He did not want others to focus on His miracles, but instead to focus on the glory of God. We may miss the whole message of Jesus if we are focused only on being healed from our disease and not on the Savior who heals.

 

• Our faith in Him should not be based on the blessings or the miracles itself, but on the one who blesses us. Because there are times when He would be silent, or He would say “no”. If our faith is as good as another answered prayer that comes our way, our faith will crumble if we receive no answer from God.

 

Things to remember if God seems not to answer:

 

1. Remember how God acts in history

n       He’s the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow (Hebrews 13:8)

 

2. Keep doing the things before you; keep doing good things

n       Galatians 6:9 – Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

 

3. Pray constantly and give thanks in everything

n       1 Thess. 5:17-18 - 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

 

4. Look at nature and remind yourself who created these things around you
5. Read his word and hold on to his promises
6. Submit your will to God

 

Mark 14:36 – “Abba, Father,” he said, “everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.”

 

 

Conclusion:

 

God’s silence may be just for a time or a season in our lives, and it may happen for many different reasons. But it isn’t permanent for those who seek God. And we can be confident that God is near, even when we can’t feel him.

 

Joshua 1:5 – No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.

Salubong 2009 - Onward to the Overflow

Salubong 2009 – Onward to the Overflow

 

 

Finally, it was that time of the year again. It had always been a mixture of sadness and delight – sadness brought by saying goodbye to the days of old, a friend whom we have all been accustomed to be with for the last 12 months; and delight brought by excitement for the days to come, a new friend who will be accompanying us through our journey for the next 12 months. It had always been a moment where somehow my heart would be slightly pricked and I would drift to the land of nostalgia for a few minutes of my time. Nevertheless, nostalgic as I would have been, this had also been a time of great rejoicing for me, not only because of another year of greater opportunities and abundant blessings but also because each year is always a gift given through the grace of God.

 

Last year had been declared as the “Year of the Conquest”, and surely God had shown wonders by drawing more people to Him, filling up His sanctuary, and raising up more leaders and workers to work in the harvest. He had manifested in many ways through the lives of those who are willing to “go forth, and make disciples of all men”. The conquest has not yet ended, but the Lord has been preparing His people for more.

 

As the Salubong for 2009 commenced, the congregation responded to the call to praise with great anticipation. More and more people entered the sanctuary – some of them might have come from their workplaces or maybe directly from their homes. Regardless of where they had been earlier that day, it had been a joy to see most of them together with their families, ready to face the year united and strong. Even those whose families were not with them physically were still overjoyed by the overwhelming presence of the Spirit and the warmth of the strong bonding of the JIL family. And how could I forget about the newly-arrived families who had spent their very first holiday in Canada or those families who had joined the annual Salubong for the first time? They, too, had been truly blessed by the Lord through the entire program held that evening.

 

As the Year of the Conquest glided its final flight, testimonies of those who had gestured prophetically that they would receive what they had asked for became exhorting words that sprung up hope for the great year ahead. Also selected music ministers had serenaded the Lord that evening with beautiful songs directed to Him. Pastor Gody Binalla exhorted the people as the New Year drew closer. Truly that God will do great and mighty things that has never been seen, heard, or felt before. Moreover, intercession followed after the Word of the God. It was truly amazing to see the unity of people’s spirits in prayer.

 

The Festival of Praise, which was one of the highlights of the evening, was one of the most amazing celebrations I have ever seen, and I am honored to be part of the ministers who ushered the people into such jubilation that brought glory to the Lord. Truly that it was a night of undignified worship, a night of dancing to the overflow. Song after song, action by action, the atmosphere was building up from the hype of expectant worshippers. I knew it would be different than if I were just at home waiting for the clock to strike 12. This was a different kind of euphoria. After all, we’re entering the year declared as the Year of the Overflow. The joyful jumps were followed by loud cheers as the timer on the screen hit the midnight call. Finally the clock struck 12!

 

Fellowship and serving of refreshments came right after the “Happy New Year” greetings. Indeed the tables were emptied as the congregation ate to replenish their strength after a very energetic and enthusiastic praise countdown to 2009. When everyone managed to settle down, the raffle draw begun! I have always been a fan of colorful and shiny stuff, and seeing numerous shiny baskets lining up the corners of the stage made me feel good inside. It would have been a satisfying sight already but lo and behold – we won one for our family! But the most important part of that giving, I believe, was the giving of baskets to those families who had spent their first Christmas and New Year celebration here in Canada. It is always a great feeling to know that even though they may be miles away from their loved ones, there will always be a great family welcoming them with the overwhelming warmth of the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge – the JIL family.

 

Before parting ways, we have proclaimed the victory for the night and the year ahead through another set of undignified worship and dancing. This had been a very victorious celebration indeed as the congregation – men, women, and children alike – had sung, danced, and shouted with much vigor that the heavens had definitely been shaken by the praises. It was definitely free na free as we lalalalalala-hey-ed to show off our most undignified poses!

 

It was definitely a great night to remember. The end of one chapter is the beginning of a new one. As this door had been already closed, God has opened not only just a mere window, not just a door, but the floodgates of heaven which has begun to overflow for all His children to receive more than what they could’ve imagined. So get the barns and the storehouses ready, for the Year of the Overflow has officially begun!

 

 

A Not-So-Ordinary First Day of School

YES, it is here - the dreaded first day of classes added with more slushy goodness and icy weather. Ah, winter season. :)

While others find it hard to smile and laugh at this point in time, I, on the other hand, find it really hilarious. And yes I'm laughing at the things that happened to me today. I was smiling when people couldn't find any reason to. Oh that love that brings me to new heights!

My class for today starts at 9 in the morning, so to avoid the morning rush (this is not the perfect time to rush, believe me) my dad had to drop me off the train station earlier. Despite the unmistakeably distasteful road conditions, we managed to actually get there on schedule. But then when I went up the platform, there in front of my eyes were the very crowd that I don't want to see in the morning when I'm on my way to school. People squished on certain spots - spots where the train doors stop, open, and close. Good thing the train that came by was the longer one, although I have never seen that kind of train connected together like that before. Yeah, well that was that. I'm quite thankful that we were not so packed inside the train.

Broadway station, time check: 8:10 or so. AHHHH, line up! Again. :P Still calm. I just thought, if I would be late then I would be late, no use in heating up my brain gears to think about that. Maybe after 10 minutes or so, I finally get to board the bus. I still get to sit on my favorite seat at the rear end of the bus. Traveling, traveling, traveling. It actually took me 2 hours to get from Surrey to UBC. Whew!

Time check: it's definitely past 9 a.m., around 9:10-ish. After skating in the snow (haha, what? It was slippery) and struggling to go up a few steps, I finally reached my destination. Hooray! Expect it was the wrong one. Haha! I was even so happy and confident that finally, I survived UBC's winter... land. So I asked this girl if I could sit beside her and she said yes. But I knew there was just something that didn't feel right. It was a bit awkward. So I thought, was I in the right room? I glanced over one student's outline, and then my hunch was confirmed - I was in BIOL 335 class. I was thinking of the room I was supposed to be in - Room 250. Yeah, it was Room 250. Counting from the first floor, 150, then basement 25... wait a minute!! This is the basement, this is room 150! Hahaha, that what I like to call "first-day-of-school-faux-pas". Embarrassing wasn't it? Actually no, I had my fair share of more embarrassing moments. I just quietly went out of the room, maybe making them think I was bored and I decided to go home.

Time check: 9:20 a.m. I quickly went upstairs and entered the room only to find out that my class was cancelled. Haha, jaw-dropping wasn't it? Hehehe, yeah. But I made a new friend anyway so I know that was meant to happen. Off I went to the SUB to do stuff I needed to do.

Anyway, time passed by; I went to my other class, went to the bookstore, ate, and eventually went home. As I rode my last mode of transportation, I found myself very interested in playing this game on my iPhone called "Shake and Spell". I became so interested that I forgot to take notice of where I was, and so I missed my stop. Hehehe! I was about to miss the other stop too, had I not stopped playing. So there I was traveling down the much longer path home, passing through more icy goodness and slushy surprise with a little dash of dog poop. Ah, joy! I thought my laughing trip was over, but lo and behold, Mr. Puno the tree decided to throw his dishwater on me and thought it would be funny. Haha, what I meant was I got dripped over with icy slush that came from a tree. My jaws dropped as I stand there with slush on my hair and face. But I thought it was funny.

Overall it was a nice day. It couldn't get more interesting than that. I thank God for giving me the smiles and laughter that keep me going through these series of unfortunate events. He really is the reason why I smile. :)

Lovely day. Praise God.

Live. Laugh. Love.

A Beautiful Message from "The Polar Express"

Ah, what a day. It hasn't been a really busy day since we can't really go anywhere. Streets in my neighbourhood are all covered with snow that measure up to as high as my knees. I have been home for the past few days, but it's okay. I like it at home.

Anyway, it's Christmas day today and I'm glad I get to stay home with my family. There's nothing better than sharing good laughs over a nice hot cup of hot chocolate... no I was kidding! I didn't drink hot chocolate, but I did eat lots of chocolate. Ahh, holidays! Among those that we did was deciding to watch The Polar Express - a story about a boy who doesn't believe in Santa Claus anymore, so he was chosen to be one of those who will board the Polar Express to North Pole to see Santa Claus in person. Although I don't really believe in Santa, I was up for a great story.

Aside from the really awesome animation that makes you feel like you're on board with them and taking part with their journey and escapades (Oh yeah, it made me remember about that interactive theater in Enchanted Kingdom, RIALTO, although this time I'm enjoying it), there are some very inspiring scenes that really touched my heart.

This is one of them, the part when they had to stop the train because of the caribous blocking the tracks.

Just in case the video wasn't working, but hopefully it is, here's what happened. The girl was put in-charge of operating the levers and other controls because the train engineer and his helper were fixing the light bulb in front of the train. When one of them saw what was ahead, they ordered the kids to stop the train. Thomas (the boy) and the girl (Sorry, I forgot her name) were panicking and they weren't sure as to how the train will be stopped. The girl was supposed to be one knowledgeable of the controls since she was the one left with the operation, but she was just too scared and confused. Thomas was now left with a very scary task - to decide which lever he will pull in order to activate the brakes. The girl pointed to a specific lever and said that she was taught that that should control the brakes, but she was not sure about it. Thomas noticed another lever that "looks" like it could be something that would control the brakes. Ultimately, he had chosen to pull the one that the girl mentioned even though both of them weren't sure, and it didn't look a lot like a "common brake lever".

That made me say "Whoa!" It might be as simple as that but it spoke to me a lot. I can relate it with what my walk with God should be.

IT SAYS: When God has shown me something or has directed me to do something, it doesn't matter if it doesn't seem to make sense. He knows what He is doing and He sees the bigger picture, and it always is the RIGHT THING to do. I may not see right away how it is supposed to be the right thing - especially when it looks so unusual that it may make me ask "What? Are you serious?" - but when He begins to make "the train stop as a result of my pulling the right lever", I will know that I had worked according to his plan.

When I was doing my devotion, it made me think of these verses:

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path."

Isaiah 55:8-9
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.


Sometimes it's just hard to follow especially when we don't know what is out there. What is God going to do with me? Where is God going to take me? And then when He finally reveals the details of the starting point, we might say, "No, no, no, no, no! That's ridiculous, anything but that." Or maybe we'll ask, "Are you sure? 'Coz it just doesn't look right. It doesn't look like a good plan to me." But our idea of what is common, what is right, what is normal, or what is sensible can only take us as far as our eyes can see... as far as our mind can fathom.

Say I'm in a marathon and I'm running behind another person; the finish line is still a few kilometres away. If my eyes are focused in a straight direction, the only thing I would be seeing is his back. I don't really see the finish line. I may not even be aware whether the finish line is close by or is still a few metres away. Then I see another path, a "shortcut" or so I thought. In my mind I want to take that route because it seems like it would bring me to the finish line faster. But then I hear the commentator say that we are approaching the end of the track; thing is, it's hard to believe since I can only hear him. It wouldn't make sense because I couldn't see anything in front of me but this guy's back, yet I can see the other path very clearly. What would've happened if I took the shortcut? What would've happened if I continued on with the race?

Life is full of choices, but blessed are we who has a God who guides. We always have the option to choose what is right - what is in accordance with the plan of Him who paints the entire picture. The only issue is whether we TRUST Him enough to obey even when His command doesn't seem to fit what we think things should be, or when He is leading us to a path that is totally in the opposite direction.

If Thomas didn't pull the correct lever but instead pulled the "seemingly correct" lever, what could've happened? I don't know, but I do know what wouldn't happen - the train wouldn't stop.


Watch this, as a conclusion. :)



MERRY CHRISTMAS AND GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDATLY.

My Heart Sings...

So here I am again, having another one of those moments.
It's one of those days where you go from zero to FULL.
You don't know what I'm taking about, no?
It's okay. LOLZ.
I'm actually happy and smiling.

But it feels good to finally be IN GOOD TERMS with the two of you. :)
I know I do feel something there, but you know what, my heart is the LORD's.
If ever you want to ask for it, ask HIM. 'Coz I don't have it. ♥

"So I heard you're in love", Kuya Barry said.
Hah yes! I finally realized how it is to be truly in love. To have that foundation in Christ. To enjoy life with or without a particular special someone. I mean, sometimes I still do think about it and I'm not closing doors, but it's not the point of living. It's simply an add-on that I can do without.

It's so nice to finally be out of that terrible cocoon, where all you get to see is false affection and worldly love. I've seen A LOT of people crying their hearts out because of broken relationships - with reasons of all sorts. I keep on telling them that they don't have to endure that kind of pain if only they see what I am seeing. But they don't listen, they must've thought I don't understand. Oh but I do, oh I DO. If only you've known what I've been through before, it's painful. I just hope that many would realize where the actual love story begins - the moment you give God your pen.

And so yes, I'm still continuing my journey. What is next? :)
Surprise me Lord. You know I love good surprises...

Reasons Why I Love Jesus More Than Edward Cullen. :)

I Wish Girls Loved Jesus As Much As They Love Edward Cullen by Beky!! Christmas Contest!!

OH, but I love my JESUS MORE than Edward Cullen. :)


= A normal guy would say: “I love you, baby!”
= Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now”

= God would say: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving kindness.” - Jeremiah 31:3b

♥

= Edward Cullen would say: "The Lion fell in love with the Lamb."

= Jesus, the Lion of Judah, became the Lamb of God who was sacrificed so that through His death you may have life.
*2 Corinthians 5:21 – “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”

♥

= Edward Cullen would sing you a song he wrote for you while playing the piano.

= God will exult over you with loud singing!
*Zephaniah 3:17 (Revised Standard) - “The Lord, your God, is in your midst, a warrior who gives victory; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will renew you with His love; He will exult over you with loud singing.”

♥

=If you died Edward would kill himself because life without you isn’t worth living.
*"Well, I wasn't going to live without you." He rolled his eyes as if that fact were childishly obvious. "But I wasn't sure how to do it--I knew Emmett and Jasper would never help... so I was thinking maybe i would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi."

=Jesus already died on the cross so that you don't have to receive death for your sins, because He values our souls.
* Isaiah 53:5 - “But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.”

♥

= Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away.
*"Do you want me to sing to you? I'll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away."

= God will not just sing away the fear, He will DEFEND you from that fear and even send His angels to your rescue.
*Isaiah 41:10 (NIV) - “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
*Psalm 91:11 (NIV) - "For he will command his angels concerning you, to guard you in all your ways."

♥

=As you left the house Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me love”
*He smiled my favorite smile."Hurry back to me"
"Always"

=When you wander off, God would exert all efforts to find you.
*Matthew 18:12-14 - "If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off?"

♥

=Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.

=Jesus would never make you hungry nor thirsty all day, all night, and forever for He is the Bread of Life and Living Water.
*John 6:35 (NIV) - "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.”

♥

=Normal Guy would say: “You hair looks like a haystack ….go brush it!
=Edward Cullen would say: "Your hair looks like haystack…but I like it”

= Jesus would say: “You’re a sinner… but you are worth dying for.”
*Romans 5:8 (NIV) – “But God demonstrated his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

♥

=Edward Cullen truly means everything he says.

= God doesn’t only mean what He says, His Word is stone-pierced and flawless. He has never broken a promise. NEVER.
* Psalm 89:34 - “I will not violate my covenant or alter what my lips have uttered.”
* Psalm 18:30 – “As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless.”

♥

=Edward Cullen is very patient… even at times when it’s hard to do so.

=God’s patience is unlimited!
*1 Timothy 1:16 – “But for that very reason, I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinner, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.”

♥

=Edward Cullen sparkles in the sunlight.

=God doesn’t just “sparkle”, He is blazing with light!
*Psalm 76:4 (NIV) – “You are RESPLENDENT with light, more majestic than mountains rich with game.”

♥

= Edward Cullen is very intelligent.

= God’s thoughts are BEYOND comprehension.
* Psalm 55:9 (NIV) – “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

♥

=A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates.
=Edward Cullen buys you a car.

= God gives more than what 1000 normal guys and 100 Edwards can give, combined… every time you ask. :)
*Psalm 2:8 – “Ask of me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession.”
*John 15:7 – “If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.”
*Philippians 4:19 – “And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.”

♥

=Edward Cullen loved a clumsy, average girl like Bella

=Jesus’ heart goes out to the filthiest, poorest, even most immoral sinners ever to walk on earth.
*1 Timothy 1:16 – “But for that very reason, I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.”
*Matthew 9:12-13 – “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

♥

=While far apart in different places a normal guy would say: “I miss you”
=While far apart in different place Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you've taken half of myself with you."

=Jesus doesn’t just reciprocate love and emotion, he even aches and longs for people who doesn’t even want to have anything to do with Him.
*Luke 13:34 – “O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!”

♥

= Jesus is just the ultimate romantic.
*Romans 8:38 – “For I am convinced that neither DEATH nor LIFE, neither ANGELS nor DEMONS, neither the PRESENT nor the FUTURE, nor ANY POWERS, neither HEIGHT nor DEPTH, nor ANYTHING else in ALL CREATION, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

♥

= Because His love SURPASSES KNOWLEDGE.
*Ephesians 3:18 – “And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have the power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long, and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”

♥

= Because He left His Kingdom to die for me.
*Philippians 2:5-8
5Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!

♥

= Edward Cullen is fictional.

= JESUS CHRIST IS ALIVE and He will come again!!!
* John 14:1-3 - “Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.”

--- > I don't know about you but I'm speechless. And those are only few verses from the Bible, not even enough to fill up one side of a page. Ahh, pure pure love. :)

--- > I'd love to tell you more but it's 4:43am already. :P


"Why settle for the Knight in Shining Armour when you can have the KING of Kings."

♥ Blessy



(I found those "reasons to love Edward Cullen" all over the internet. Oh and btw, I'm not a hater. I think his character has been written quite well. Kudos to Meyer!)

W for Winter? No, W for Worship.

Usual day - I woke up late though, and yes I missed my Biology class (again). But then I need to go to school because I have a quiz to write for Biology tutorial. So I was on the train, staring outside as always, enjoying my favorite view (between Edmonds and 22nd Street), slightly smiling and sighing whenever I feel something good inside, when I thought of something that I have never thought of before.


If I recall correctly, I was listening to Parachute Band's "All the Earth" on my iPod at that time. ...hear the trees, joyful cry, praising You... . At that moment, when I looked at the trees one by one, I have seen something different. I said to myself, wow, look at the branches of those trees. They look like they are raising their little arms to praise their Creator. The sight of towering pine trees against the vastness of the sky never looked so majestic. ...hear the trees, joyful cry, praising You... . And I'm seeing it. It's amazing. They speak silently yet they worship with zeal, something that I have never seen before. What amazed me more is the sight of those smaller trees, and even those little bermuda grass sprouts. All day, all night, "hands and arms" raised up high! I can't even keep my hands raised for 30 minutes straight!







But the best thing I have seen all day is this. Yes, I did see the pine trees. Yes I did see those trees that still have their leaves on. Oh and yes, they look wonderful. But what about those that entirely lost their leaves earlier this fall season? I wonder what their story is. Winter is coming up... it's all part of the cycle... Yeah I know that. But when I clicked my brain's camera and developed the picture in my head, it's different.






Some would think it is a gloomy and sad picture. I thought of the same, but God made me see it differently. Yes it is nice to see these trees with all their splendor; it's great to enjoy looking at the different colors of the leaves during fall. But once those leaves are all gone and what is left to see are those dark, spooky-looking branches, do they still tell of a glorious message?


YES! I have realized that even though those leaves that bring splendor to their stature give glory to the Creator of all things, and when these trees lift their branches in worship, they tell of the beauty of the Lord, taking them all off brings greater focus on God. We see them for what they are and what they do, we clearly see their devotion in worship. Now, without those leaves, we clearly see their branches - their arms and hands - lifted up high in worship of the Great "I Am". They may be naked, but in their nakedness, their highest praise shows. Did they curse God for stripping them off their layer of "clothing"? They have been taking good care of their precious leaves during the rest of the other seasons and now they are being commanded to take them off? Ouch. But did they mutter complaints and annoyance? No, they kept their "hands" up high! ...we'll praise you in the spring, in the summer, in the fall, and in the winter Lord. We'll praise You all day, all night.


What an amazing way to illustrate how we Christians should be! When everything is stripped away, all that should be seen from us is our extravagant worship, because that's what we are created for. What are these extra things in life? They are like the wind that comes and goes. They aren't ours, even our lives aren't ours! We are but stewards of God's treasures. In the end, it's not going to be a matter of how much we give out of our abundance, but how much we give out of our nothingness.




Praise be to God forever and ever.



CREATED TO PRAISE. BORN TO WORSHIP THE ROCK OF SALVATION. ♥

Fragrance and Thorns

Sometimes I do feel a slight prick in my heart whenever I see couples who are very much happy and in love. Often times I just don't care, especially when I see younger couples who seem to be ecstatic about having someone to cuddle up with.

Sometimes I do feel sad; sometimes it just doesn't matter anymore. I do have thoughts in my mind - when will my turn be? Is there really someone out there that God has set apart for me? Or what if He wants me to be single for the rest of my earthly life? I want to make sense of things. I want to know His plans.

Sometimes I do ask - why this? Not that I hate it, not that I like it either. It just confuses me a lot. I've had my fair share of grave mistakes in the past and I don't want to repeat history. I've read somewhere that if you want to raise your caliber as a woman, you must set a high standard for men. Exactly, I don't want to give my heart out to anyone who walks by and asks for it; I'm happy I got over the "he's cute so he'll make a great bf" stage.

Sometimes I want to do things my own way; sometimes I do get tired of waiting. Sometimes I'm stuck in the middle, and that's where I am actually... well, let's say most of the time. I want to believe that there will come a time wherein I would see God's perfect match for me. He need not be perfect like those fairytale princes and romance novel hunks, 'coz when he is God-given, I'm sure he's the ONE. But when? Or what if I'm waiting for nothing? I'm confused.

Sometimes I just can't find the answer myself, even if I look through every page in the Bible. I mean, I know it's there but I do need help finding it and understanding it; I'm not a one-man band, I need help. I do thank God 'coz He does speak to me wherever I lay my eyes on. Just a few things I've read:

"Yet in the Bible, those who followed God's leadership and guidance when searching for a soulmate (Isaac) fared better than those who tried to do it their own way (Jacob, David, Solomon, etc.)" - Brian Tubbs [that I haven't noticed before]

Demoss exhorts singles not to make marriage and sex their objective, but rather to become a godly lover as Christ did. "If we’re to become more Christlike, we’ll need to learn that generosity and serving others is at the heart of the matter," concludes DeMoss in Sex & the Single Person. "In doing, we’ll best prepare ourselves for life whether we remain single or married." [I like this one. Godly lovers.]

"Honor God with your life. Keep your vows to him even if it hurts. It will pay off in the long run." - (I forgot who said this.. credits to you) [True that.]

It still hurts. It does, but I can't afford to lose my relationship with the One who loves me the most. Although the pain may mask my heart and my eyes, causing me not to see the love He is constantly giving me, but it's there. I just have to see it, it is right there.

But few things are for sure,

I'd rather be single than be with the wrong one...

I'd rather be single than be lost in the world of earthly lust and immorality...

I'd rather be single than hate myself afterwards for not listening to what God is saying about marriage and relationships...

I'd rather be single than be addicted to pseudo-affection... and pain.

I want to find my contentment in You, Lord.

Peace Arch... and some more longing.

Well this morning was okay. I was half-lazy, half-sick... or maybe 1/4 lazy, 3/4 sick. I didn't go to the Sunday devotion again, because I was just too sick to get up. I even thought I won't be able to back up; I had no voice, really. I just decided to go on stage at the last minute. I was like 'should I stay or should I go now', *insert music here* LOL. But God is really good, at least He did let me stand even though I can't move that much and I feel like I'm gonna faint. =p. I didn't go back there for the ministering after the word and the victory though, I just can't do it.

Hectic, hectic, hectic sched. School's starting on Tuesday. But not for me... it starts tomorrow. =/ Well I have to go there tomorrow for this training thing and what not. I should just skip the whole thing and go somewhere else - out of province, perhaps?

I would say I didn't really enjoy my summer. At least I had this nice weekend with my family... oh and CYN Camp. But other than that, it was pretty... plain. No trips to Pinas, not even a single trip to Victoria. My parents and I had this small talk about us not going anywhere... I know I had made my point though. I was starting to get really tired of seeing the same four-cornered place, same intersections and stop lights, same stuff over and over again. I want something new; I feel like Surrey is choking me to death. I'm not claustrophobic but I feel like I'm locked up in a tight, secluded place and I'm gasping for breath.

Awesome though, we went to Peace Arch today. For the first time ever, I've stepped on US soil. LOL. And I never even realized I've crossed the geographic border already (not the barricaded one). I could've taken a picture of my first step! LOL, tourist. Another memory etched on my heart. =D Anypoo, it's always nice to run away from all craziness and be with my family; I always know that I'm home when I'm with them. Aww. Mush-mush-much. Few months from now, I'm going to cross that border... but for now, I'm happy seeing that other side. It makes the wait so much exciting. Kinda like love...

'put that past away... put that past away... put that past awwwaaaayy', expect for something great...no, greater... PERFECT.

I know I have my unfinished business that is yet to be done, but I shouldn't be so lost in it. You are just another northern star; that's all you'll ever be.


Some 'cham'callitz:

-- Something confirmed, another northern star added to my constellations. When will I ever see the end of the rainbow? I'm waiting Lord.

-- Saw my long-time-no-see friend, Marvin, today.

-- Bit disappointed with Duty Free, but then again, it is Duty Free anyway. =p

The Start of the Journey

Honestly, I don't really know how I would start this blog right now. But then I think I just did! Haha, anyway, it's 2:32 am and I believe I should be doing something else - sleeping, to be exact. However, I really want to grab this opportunity to take you on a journey that has just been started and maybe a trip down memory lane.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." - Jeremiah 33:3

As a kid, I had a very extensive imagination. Actually, I believe I haven't really lost my lifetime ticket to Lala-land. Oh you know - the land of kings and queens, fairies and magic, royal balls and Prince Charming, porcelain dolls and tiaras, castles and towers, candies and sweets. I have tons of fairytale books and I occasionally borrow the VHS versions especially when I visit my hometown and see my cousins. From Cinderella and Snow White to Ariel and Belle, it was almost a nonstop ride to the land of happy endings. Oh I dreamt of that - being a princess, finding my one true love, having a prince who will sweep me off my feet, wearing puffy ball gowns and glass slippers, and living happily ever after. I love fairytales and fantasies... and science experiments. I know, that's how wide-ranged my imagination was: fact to fiction. I also dreamt of building a mini hovering vehicle - or a flying scooter maybe - just because I wanted to really make those science fiction movies come to life. I began to spend my after-school hours inside a HUGE public library (yes, high ceiling!) researching about the Wright Brothers, and scanning through big bulks of Encyclopedia just for fun. I loved the feel of their leather-bound covers, the look of the gold lining on the edges and on the side; I adore the anquity of some of these precious treasures. And yes, from futuristic to ancient and from science to arts - my mind traveled to-and-fro. So you could also imagine what else I loved and still love, vintage! I was a discovery enthusiast: I used to always go inside this tiny room at my grandparents' house and peek into antique closets with all these hidden compartments. I found lots of coins from the 1900s, a few old gold watches, old photographs, and letters. This was like treasure hunting for me, and indeed I considered my findings as treasures. My imagination ran wild whenever I played, and my mind traveled to many places with the books I read.

SO WHAT? ... Remember that verse I quoted above? Many would say that it is God's personal telephone number, a hotline that never goes busy. But I've just realized how much more it meant to me and how much more I can relate to God through it (Oh my goodness, I'm telling you, as I am typing and thinking, God is explaining this to me better). Recently, I really wanted to patch up my relationship with God; I long for my prayers to be more than just petitionary, but for them to really be relational and intimate. Gone are my nights of lifeless talks and routine-driven prayers - at least that is what I really wanted. But I don't know where to start or how to start; I cannot even focus on intercession because I know I have to pray for something more important. I even feel selfish because I've been praying a lot for myself lately than for others; but I know that before I can even minister to others, I have to be ministered first.

If we were to talk about phone lines, here's an illustration of my conundrum (well, not really, I just want to say something fancy): Ever ordered pizza through the delivery service? Well, I haven't, but I've seen enough movies so I think I know where I'm going with this. Haha! Isn't it that when you call, you just basically state your business of calling - which is getting your pepperoni pizza and diet coke - and hang up right after the deal is done? Usually you do, except when you prank call, but that's out of the topic. It is basically the same as petitionary prayers, "Lord I want this, I want that. Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! Amen." Translated to pizza delivery language, "I want a pepperoni pizza with extra cheese and sauce, and a large diet coke. Thank you." I usually do that, less praisy, more asky. I praise God just because it is part of ACTS (Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving, Supplication), not because I really want to with all my heart.

"Lord, I praise you and magnify your Holy Name... by the way, here's my list of
needs and the list of others' needs too."

The longer I pray like this, the more it becomes a burden than a joy. I know at some point I need to stop; I just won't survive this boring routine of doing my devotion every 9pm. I have to find THE missing piece. And that is what I have learned... I have to have a heart-to-heart talk with the pizza guy. Oooooohh, ahhh-wkk-waardd. I know, and if it were happening in real life, uh yeah, that would be a trip to planet Woo - Land of the weird! See my point? It is awkward when I don't know the person that well or at all! Let's say, sure I want to, but how or where do I start? THAT is my problem, how do I not only talk to that person on the other line, but also converse...intimately? But the best thing about this is that God isn't just a pizza guy; he is way more than that, WAY more. He will never feel weird when I start to draw near to Him and begin to ask "How did your day go Lord?" (Although technically, since one day for Him is a thousand years for me, my question is yet to be answered...in the year 3000. But, might as well give Him a good chuckle. Haha.) But how do I really get to be intimate with God?

Here is His answer: Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. Okay, so I call, He answers. But wait... He'll tell me of great and unsearchable things I do not know? Looks like treasure hunting to me! And he is the one to give the treasure map. This is what He is telling me: renew your passion for discovery, let your spiritual imagination run wild, fulfill your vision, ignite your childlike faith, SEEK ME AND YOU WILL FIND ME. Peek more into the hidden compartments and delight more in seeing high towers of countless hard, leather-bound books; adore the mystery of God and long to see the treasure that is in Him. Do not give up the dream of making a flying scooter, and do not forget Cinderella and Ariel. In other words, I must use my beginning to look forward to the end. I must go back to my first love.

I may not know yet how to work it out exactly as God wants me to use it; nevertheless, it is the start of countless discoveries I will make, the beginning of God's unfolding of His treasure map. He did not put this passion in my heart for no reason; oh He knows how excited I get with mysteries (that's why I loved reading Nancy Drew books). He also knows that I am losing it slowly, and He doesn't want that to happen. I bet my heavenly Papa, my great storyteller, the captain of my ship, the author of my story, and the treasure of my heart has tons of incredible things to show me... did I mention He is currently working on my love story, too?

Yep, who said Prince Charming is a myth? Not with my author. ;)

Stay tuned. God bless!

"One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple." - Psalm 27:4

~*Living the Love Song*~